it’s been 3 days i’ve been living in my new house. i’m a bit scared because .. i don’t know, everything’s just got real all of a sudden. i have to face electricity problem, cook all by myself, clean up the house, taking care of my son. it’s just a whole new world (again) to me. sometimes there’s a sad feeling to leave our previous house that’s been so nice to us for the last 2 years. this new house is quite far from where i used to live (which is so near from mall, food centres, etc). when i lived in my previous house, it took only 5 minutes to go to the mall. but now it takes half hour. plus the traffic. oh i hate this part. but in the other side, i can’t thank enough because we finally have our own house.
sexual harassment and abuse has been a popular topic lately, and it’s pretty much consuming me (a lot of people too). having a son doesn’t make me less worry because nowadays sexual abuse don’t only happen to girls/women, but little boys, even babies. the importance of introducing sex and moral lesson maybe become #1 priority now. you know, every time i watch tv news or social media, most people are cursing and blaspheme these ruthless thugs. they scream moral that seems fade away, how saddening. how come those jerks hurt weak ones like babies and kids. the worst part is the wound will still be there ‘til the victims breath the last air. how their sadism will affect those kids’ future, not impossible will they have deviant in the future. but criminal wouldn’t think that far, nor they feel ashamed of what they did. god, what kind of world my son’s living in? my heart is aching. this world has become a major madness disaster –where it’s not safe anymore to let kids run around without being so worry about kidnapping or abusing. ooh yes, of course i’m freaked out about it. who doesn’t? :(
“You say I’m a dreamer, we’re two of a kind
Both of us searching for some perfect world we know we’ll never find
So perhaps I should leave here, yeah go far away