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Sheila Junniar / 1988 / Indonesia / Foucault's admirer / I was born when the sun currently transits the constellation of Gemini / I'm attracted easily by beach, get lost when traveling, and stars / You may say anything but your opinion does not matter to me.


Moving In & On!

it’s been 3 days i’ve been living in my new house. i’m a bit scared because .. i don’t know, everything’s just got real all of a sudden. i have to face electricity problem, cook all by myself, clean up the house, taking care of my son. it’s just a whole new world (again) to me. sometimes there’s a sad feeling to leave our previous house that’s been so nice to us for the last 2 years. this new house is quite far from where i used to live (which is so near from mall, food centres, etc). when i lived in my previous house, it took only 5 minutes to go to the mall. but now it takes half hour. plus the traffic. oh i hate this part. but in the other side, i can’t thank enough because we finally have our own house. 


  -  23 April
"Emotions are supposed to be raw, ugly, brutal…you don’t want someone to ‘sorta’ love you. You want that love to be a bursting flame, not a candle."



A Trace Amount of My Worrisome Heart (and Mind)

sexual harassment and abuse has been a popular topic lately, and it’s pretty much consuming me (a lot of people too). having a son doesn’t make me less worry because nowadays sexual abuse don’t only  happen to girls/women, but little boys, even babies. the importance of introducing sex and moral lesson maybe become #1 priority now. you know, every time i watch tv news or social media, most people are cursing and blaspheme these ruthless thugs. they scream moral that seems fade away, how saddening. how come those jerks hurt weak ones like babies and kids. the worst part is the wound will still be there ‘til the victims breath the last air. how their sadism will affect those kids’ future, not impossible will they have deviant in the future. but criminal wouldn’t think that far, nor they feel ashamed of what they did. god, what kind of world my son’s living in? my heart is aching. this world has become a major madness disaster –where it’s not safe anymore to let kids run around without being so worry about kidnapping or abusing. ooh yes, of course i’m freaked out about it. who doesn’t? :(


  -  17 April

You say I’m a dreamer, we’re two of a kind

Both of us searching for some perfect world we know we’ll never find

So perhaps I should leave here, yeah go far away

But you know that there’s nowhere that I’d rather be than with you here today”

(Source: Spotify)


  -  17 April
"As women, we are taught to be tiny. To have small bodies, to never be imposing. The ideal of our gender are thin and childlike, hairless and dainty. We are defined by our bodies; defined by our control over them. We are taught to obsess over our physicality and to be repulsed by our desires and intelligences.
We are taught to walk scared late at night. We cradle our keys between our perfectly manicured fingers, walking gracefully like a baby antelope in a herd of lions. That our virginity defines our character. That I am a frigid bitch if I do not fuck him, and a dirty slut if I do."


-Michelle K., The Truth About Growing Up A Woman (via persehpone)


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